So, it seems I’m not really suited to sitting in a classroom or a lecture hall. Today was my last day at university. For the second time.
Only last August I was excited to be leaving business school to pursue a degree, of my choosing this time and not my parent’s, and after dithering between photography and filmmaking - I chose filmmaking. But now, after feeling like I’ve wasted the last year on trying to organise group projects with people who never intend on coming to class and feeling really unmotivated and uninspired by teachers who don’t really care that much either, I’ve decided to leave.
In April I did an internship at a production company in the city and my eyes were really opened to the other ways of learning (i.e. through experience). By assisting and just simply watching those who were working the jobs I hope to one day, I felt so inspired. My dreams for the future suddenly felt so so SO much more real and achievable.
Right now, I’m just trying to get my work out there. I've sent a few different projects that I've done over the last year to various competitions and festivals in the hopes that something will get some attention... in the meantime, I'm hoping to maybe get another shoot done. In July, I leave for San Francisco for 2 weeks to do a short film course there (read: another film for my showreel! but in a cool place!), and then once I’m back in London I’ll be doing a few other short courses to add to my CV until I can find a long-term internship in a production company or maybe even assisting a photographer. Honestly, I think I would be happy going down either path.